I am a manupulative bitch. I am a professional liar.

I've been skipping classes and submit my assignments late because I hate going to anywhere. I love being home so much I just stay in for several days until I feel guilty enough to come back to school. When my classmates and my professors ask me about it, I'll use my parents marital problem as an excuse, or make up an excuse by saying that an already dead relative just died and I have to attend the funeral.

That's just one problem. Whenever I create a problem I cannot deal with, I'll always try to get away from it by saying some manipulative lies so instead of getting angry to me, people will just pity me and help me solve my problem.

I know, not only I'm manipulative and a liar, I'm also a coward. Even I have to go to an anonymous site to confess this.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Apr 5, 2013 at 1:48 PM

Woah, I give you this, you know what your doing.
You look down at yourself. Comparing yourself to others in this system.
you are you. and honestly i dont think your so bad, a few issues maybe but most have some kind of issues.

Your honest, not many are.

I think you feel alone in some way.
Everyone is born alone and will die alone, its natural but with this...

You dont know me, never met me. My name is David. Even though we are strangers will you do something for me? Just give value to yourself. Dont compare to other people.

It hurts me to see this because honestly if i could i would help you in some way you know, even by just being a friend that understands you.

A person that admits what you have is STRONG. Most havent got the guts. I admire you for this.

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by Anonymous on Apr 6, 2013 at 7:00 AM

As I read this I came to the initial conclusion that you suffer from depression. Your manipulative ways and diversion tactics are merely a camoflage for creating some form of tolerance and acceptance among those around you....a way of "explaining" your behaviour without, in fact, explaining your behaviour. The fact that you hide, skip class, avoid things tells me you have clinical depression. I would seek a doctor's help and when discussing this, make certain to tell him/her of your physical manifestation of essentially hiding (staying in your room, skipping school, etc.) - it's a form of anxiety. I would ask the doc specifically about an antidepressant called Lexapro - it is designed to treat depression with mild anxiety.

Don't wait. It will help you to stop merely existing and start living.

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