I will be 20 this year, and one of my managers will be 23. Anyway I had always had a crush on him. Then one day he offered causal sex. This is against work regulations. It would be fine if he was not my manager. So we were getting into it, and I don't think I could do it again. I mean I would have been all for it a while ago. Now after getting what I wanted it's strange to me. Not to mention I really did not feel much. He is a tiny guy. He really had to try. I felt bad for him. I didn't want to hurt his feelings. There is seriously nothing he can do about being small. We decided that we weren't going to tell people about, because both of our jobs could be at stake. He would get in to more trouble than me. I mean I still see him as a friend, but nothing else. I have always wanted figure out how I truly feel about him, and now I do. We don't mesh on a romantic level. A part of me is happy that I did that, and the other part is not. I kind of wished that I didn't, but I am going to go on like it never happened. It is what we agreed to. I am happy about that. At least I don't think he would bother me about it. I think he will be tide over for a while.