Last night I cheated for the first time in my life. I've been dating him for just a few months but we are very passionate and serious. I love him so so so so much, but lately he has been very needy and it has begun to get on my nerves. Last night I was helping a good friend of mine (I'll call him Mike) write an english paper (we're undergrad students) and after we were done we decided to celebrate with a few drinks. Mike and I used to hook-up occasionally but were entirely casual fuck-buddies (We would high five after sex and talk about our other hook-ups like bros). Me and Mikes sexual relationship stopped when I started dating my boyfriend but Mike and I remained very good friends and still hang out. My boyfriend knows about my sexual past with Mike but isnt concerned or jealous because he has also become friends with him and he trusts us both. Anyway, last night I got quite a bit drunker than I intended. Mike's roommates came back and decided to drink with us as well. We were all having a great time, laughing goofing and joking around and having an awesome time. After a while we all decided to go for a ride and smoke some weed. At this point my memory starts to get blurry because I was quite drunk. I was sitting in the back of the car next to one of Mikes roommates. I've always thought he was very handsome and funny and smart. I don't remember why but I started to give him a blowjob (which he didn't object to) right there in the car in front of Mike and several other guys. None of them tried to stop me or talk me out of it so I continued to do it until we got back to their apartment and Mike and I went into his room. After a bit of drunk flirting we got into his bed and started to fool around I don't remember much of what happened but according to Mike "we fucked A LOT". I can remember being on top of him and feeling him inside of me as I rode him. I also remember him playing with my breasts; gently kissing them and licking them. He's very different in bed than my boyfriend. My boyfriend is very take charge and doesnt let me spoil him in bed or take control of our sex. Mike loves it when I take control and pamper him sexually, and I remember thinking how nice it was to be in charge again. This morning I woke up naked except for my mini skirt in Mike's bed and had the surprisingly calm but intense realization that I had definitely cheated on my boyfriend. Twice. I got dressed and pretended to go back to sleep until Mike came back from his shower. The first words out of my mouth when I saw him were "This never happened". He immediately agreed and assured me that none of his roommates would say anything either. We got breakfast together before I went home. He was also calm but apologetic about the whole thing. We made a few dark jokes about what awful people we are and he mentioned that he felt bad because he really does like my boyfriend. When I saw my boyfriend I told him that I'd just crashed on Mikes couch, and he believed me. I'm not going to tell him. It would break his heart. I love him and he loves me so much. Me and Mike have agreed to erase last night from our history but we obviously have an overpowering sexual chemistry that I'll have to be careful of from now on….I Just found out that my boyfriend and Mike were randomly placed in the same dorm room next year, and I have no clue how that's going to play out. My boyfriend is super excited to live with Mike because he's quite fond of him….little does he know that he'll be living with a guy who I cheated on him with.