I lost my best friends and my childhood sweetheart all at the same time. I've been friendless and generally lonely for 2-3 years. I finally gain a crush on a guy I was talking to a lot, only to find out he had a girlfriend, after stringing me along, for a long time.
For 6 months I've been stuck in a depressing rut with no one to talk to.

It's been getting harder, and I've been frustrated with wanting love that I turned into a that person. That terrible person. That uses men to make myself feel better.
I broke and hurt genuinely nice guys.

I don't believe I deserve a good relationship anymore. Or a friend to talk to.

As I've been purposely hurting everyone I come across.

I.. Really forgot how to be happy.
And Im too afraid to try.

Thanks for reading. If you did.