I have spent time with a married man who used to be my fuck buddy for 5 years. We have never had sex since he got engaged. I did not want a monogamous relationship during the time I knew him, so it was an arrangement that worked to satisfy my needs. I find it strange now though that he still wants to have meetings. So far, we have not done anything physical, just talked and catched up. We don't communicate at all otherwise, and his number is not even stored in my phone. I know it's wrong since he is lying to his wife about who he is with. I choose to meet up with him still because I've known him for a long time, and I like spending time with him. And when I say that, I don't expect anything. I still do NOT want a monogamous relationship with anyone. This man was there for me through some of the hardest times in my life, and he has seen me at my worst. Thus, I know I will meet him for as long as he wants to. I trust him, since he was honest about other woman he was with and didn't have any need to lie to me. I was easy, but I wanted it this way. I know not every woman can handle this and most believe in fairy tale love, but that's not how I operate. I think he still wants to meet because he thinks we will eventually have sex again, and he misses the attention. He never struck me as someone who would be happy with one woman, and he was not faithful to any of the woman he was with during the time I've known him. I am happy for him and his wife, and I know some people will think "homewrecker." I want his wife and him to stay together. She helped him a lot financially, and she cooks for him every day. She takes care of him and loves him, but regardless, I don't think he will change. I don't believe in monogamous relationships, and I still don't want one. I'm confessing since I find it strange that I am this way.