im a 18yr old female.6 years ago i started having sex...with my them 19yr old brother. at that age i didnt know what is was all about to be honest. i was 12yrs old when it started, it was summer and really hot. i was sleeping in my panties and a shirt, i woke up to my brother masturbating over top off. when he saw my eyes open he put his hand over my mouth so i could not scream and he jacked off and cummed on my face. he told me our parents would be mad at me if they new and not to say anything and well...i didnt. the next night he come in i was still awake, he never said a word to me but took off my cloths and his also. he started kissing me like really kissing me and touching me. he then rolled me on my stomach and proceded to stick his dick in me, it hurt like really bad but he did it softly. he fucked me for probably 30 minutes and cummed in me. but i never said anything over the next year he probably fucked me atleast once a week but always cummed in my mouth afterwards. by then i liked it and i guess didnt know we should not have been doing it. by 13 he had me ask our mom to put me on birth control which i did and to my suprise she did with a big speech about waiting till im married and all that stuff. thats when he started to cum in me evertime we had sex.by then i loved it and was having great orgasms to.but it all ended on night when i was 14 1/2, he took me to his freinds house for a party.he got me really drunk and fucked me in his freinds bed,i found out a couple years later from one of his freinds that after i past out in the bedroom almost every guy there took turns fucking me which was about 15 to 20 guys. all i remember was waking up in my bedroom sore and smeeling like a cum factory. he never touched me again till last week. he is married now and i am enguaged. we were at our parents house for dinner and i went up stairs to use the bathroom. he had followed me up and when i come out he said we needed to talk. he said he was sorry for what happened that night and he missed me greatly. and stupid me...one thing led to another and i let him fuck me in the bathroom with everyone downstairs. he cummed in me like always and i had like 3 orgasms. later that evening i let him fuck me in the pool and then made a excuse to leave and go to the store. we fucked in my boyfriends car for a hour in the store parking lot.i cummed like 10 times in the car.was deff the best sex i have ever had in my life, i love my husband to be but he cant fuck me like that. it was so amazing, i feel like a slut and a whore but if he trys again i know i will let him.im sorry baby i really am!!!