This doesn't really fit in a category...I just had to say it. I've been talking to this girl now for a few months and I've been helping her with rent and school. We talk all the time. If I am at work all I think about is her, because I hate my job, but I work as hard as I can. I'm a war veteran, I went to Afghanistan in 2009, I'm 24 years old. I find it very difficult to meet girls because I have post traumatic stress disorder. I'm a really nice guy, I'm not unattractive but she seems like the only girl I think I can live with...here's the kicker...we met on the internet. I have so much doubt about her because I don't trust many people, almost no one. I feel like she might just be after my money, but the way she talks to me makes me feel like she really cares about me. I've had girlfriends before, and she talks to me just like they did. I recently spend a week in the ICU because I was having seizures. I was in a very bad car accident a few years ago, and now I have seizures as a result. She was worried about me. Her and I have been talking for about two months now, and it has been romantic. Today, she said she loved me. I didn't say it back. I'm too afraid that I am just fucking myself over with this girl, even though I know that I love her too. She says she wants me to eventually move where she lives, and to me, it sounds like the perfect life...but...she is still a stranger to me. She makes me so happy. When I have a bad day I think of her. When I think about the war, I think about her and I feel happy again. I've been struggling with depression and PTSD for about three years now, everything seems better when I talk to her, or just think about her. She always takes time to talk to me...here's the real bomb...she strips on a webcam porn site...We use skype to talk and when we talk she seems happy to see me, she waves at me, and blows me kisses. She has told me how much she hates her job, but she can't find another that pays well enough. I've sent her money for her to start school again. I love her...but I'm afraid I'm being used, like she lies to me to pay her rent and bills. I have no reason to think this, I've never caught her in a lie, she doesn't just ask me to send me money. She talks to me, she worries about me, she told me she loves me...half of me doubts that she does. half of me loves her too. I've lost a lot of friends in the war, and now that I have someone that I think I love, I'm just afraid. I know how pathetic I seem, I know how pathetic I actually am, but, she is the one I dream about now when I sleep...not the war, not the dead bodies, not my friends that died. I love her too, I just feel like I have placed my trust in her and I'm destined to get fucked over...I don't know what to do or how to feel.