i gave my first bj to a guy when i was ll. my cousin wanted to show me how, so she arranged for her bf to come over while i was spending the weekend. they have a small apartment over their garage for visitors and that's where i always stayed while visiting. my cousin always stayed there with me while i visited, and this time good to her word, her bf showed up late that night. she told me she would go first so i could see how it was done, so she took the tip of his cock in her mouth and had me jack him until he came in her mouth. i remember his warm hard cock felt so good in my hand and when he came i didn't want to let go--that feeling of it throbbing in my hand as he came was fantastic. when it stopped throbbing my cousin showed me her bf's cum in her mouth, then swallowed it and said i had to swallow too, so she pushed my head down to her bf cock and i took it between my lips. i could taste his cum from my cousin's turn and i thought it didn't taste very good, but kept his cock in my mouth while she jacked him off. i didn't know what to expect and when he came it shot down my throat--a lot of it. i hadn't thought there was that much when i saw her do it, but when you have cum in your throat it's a lot more than it looks. i started to gag and puked all down the front of his pants. his look of disbelief and anger along with the horrified looks from my cousin were more than i could stand and i just started crying. my cousin took her bf in the bathroom and cleaned him up and she sent him on his way still apologizing to him as i lay sobbing on the bed.

my cousin's bf never would let me touch him again.

to this day, more than 10 years later, whenever i am with a guy i feel a physical need to blow him. as soon as i see a guy my eyes keep wandering to his crotch to see if i can tell the size of his cock. as soon as he speaks to me i start imagining what it would feel like to have his cock in my mouth. my friends call me the bj queen and think i'm a bj slut, but i don't care--i need to suck a guys cock when i meet him and feel his cum in my mouth and swallow it. i know i cannot erase what i did to my cousin's bf, but each time i blow a guy, it's my apology and it makes me feel better about myself.