I tell myself that I don't need anyone, and that I'd rather be alone. But the truth is, what I want more than anything in this world is to have close friends. But I only seem to be able to make friends through boyfriends, and in the past, when me and the bf would break up, my "friends" would leave me behind. I am now moved to a new state with my fiancee, and his friends claim to love me and call me friend. I tried not to grow attached, but I failed. Every Time they are nice to me I try not to cry. Because I know they only put up with me for him.
Just like the others did.