we moved into our house 3 yrs ago it's a nice house with a pool but about 150 feet from our house is an apartment complex and after buying our house and moving in we found out it was government housing and there's alot of activity going on which i know it's drug related and had i known that beforehand i would have picked another community to finish raising my kids. i'm 35 married with 2 kids a boy 12 and our daughter is 16 now and has her own car and is dating an older man which her father would flip out about especially if he knew the guy is a black thug. he's not really racist just thinks whites and blacks shouldn't mix. i am close to my daughter and she confides in me so i know most everything she does and she's sexually active but i was surprised that she's been sexually active for almost 3 years that would make her 13 her first time,now that did stun me but trying to be supportive and knowing i was having sex and doing drugs at 14 how can i say anything or punish her. she does do drugs mostly weed which she loves because it makes her laugh alot and gets her very horny and again how can i fault her it effects me the same way and her dad knows when i smoke. i'm very sexually aggressive when i'm high. i can't say i'm happy about her choices but i want to be the cool mom that all the kids like so i'm very liberal with her and she has lots of friends and does ok in school but i wish her grades where better. we've lived here 3 yrs and i'm used to the guys on the street yelling at me and my daughter as we get in the car to leave and they used to stand in the road and stop my car which is a mustang gt convertible just to talk and flirt and i've become good friends with them after realizing they're not going to hurt me. now i stop to talk,tease,flirt which always ends up in a frenzy of sexual enuedos and i admit the playfulness between me and them is fun and there's been a little physical playfulness between us and i have to admit it gets me hot having them touch me. i love it actually and i have told my daughter of fantasies that made her blush but the things i want them to do with me and it boggles my mind. my daughter is in support of me having fun as long as it doesn't interfere with my homelife. she'd never tell her dad no matter what that i'm sure of because then she'd have to admit she knew of what i was doing and lose daddy's favor so i'm good where she's concerned. her boyfriend's name is seven a bit strange but in his family he's the 7th son that's thier way and it's hard to watch him demand or command my daughter around sometimes and he is intimidating and sometimes i jump at his commands when he demands and the one time i tried to set him straight about ordering me around i got this deep stared that made me afraid of him so i try not to get that kind of reaction out of him again but my daughter has adapted to his way of thinking and she doesn't question him,it's kinda sad but she says she likes it. i asked her about thier relationship and her being enslaved to him but she was hesitate to answer with him there so i didn't push the issue. i want to be angry but i can't because i have sadistic fantasies of being sexually enslaved maybe she does as well. maybe my daughter is living my ideal life. my husband used to be so exciting sexually and i couldn't wait to come home to him but he's a different man now and i find myself looking for attention elsewhere like my street thug friends. i haven't been sexual with any of them yet but i know the sexual tention between us has grown passed the flirting and fondling i'm ready for a full on slot of raw black aggression. i'm tired of them getting me soo worked up that i'm wanting all they have got for me that it's unbearable to wait much longer. i'm very curious about meth if weed gets me horny then maybe meth will get me hotter,my daughter doesn't have a bad thing to say about it and seven says only the weak minded get addicted and i have a strong will so i'm interested to try it with him. i wrestle with my sex addiction and i've been able to keep that under control by a nice selection of toys. meth can't be any different just know your limits and don't cross over that limit,right. me and my daughter have a more friends type relationship rather than mom and daughter like my mom and i had,she was a gung-ho principle type mom and i can confide in her abiout anything without being judged that's why i raised my daughter so loose and give her room to live and have fun. i'm not saying it's easy being nice to a guy that used to pimp your own daughter out to god knows who but he must have developed feelings for her because he no longer let's her turn tricks. i'm going to be very happy the day she graduates but college is out i'm sure but if she decides to go to college we'll send her but i'm also sure that will be seven's decision,not hers. seven is a character and has hit on me in her presence which i play off with the boy you're crazy but as he says i got your boy swinging and she has told me he wants to fuck me and she wants to make him happy that's ok with her but it's not ok with me,especially when i have some younger better looking guys that are just waiting to tear my clothes off just across the street. the house is quiet this morning my husband in the other room is sleeping oblivious to all that goes on in our hearts and lives daily. i sometimes think it's not fair to him and a little guilt does arise but i have been replaying the fun with these guys for a long time now and that the guilt goes away without any effort on my part. i'm a happy woman today.