I'm a married woman, but not happily. I've been married for 10+ years. My husband and I have not shared a bed in over four years, and have not had sex in over two years. I've had several online relationships over the past four years that have led to cyber sex, voice sex with mutual masturbation and even video sex with mutual masturbation. The sad part is that my husband knows about these things and it's not a big deal. He trusts me that it's only over the computer and he doesn't care. What he doesn't know is that a few months ago, I actually met one of these men face to face. I rented a hotel room a couple of hours away from home and we spent an INCREDIBLE day/night together. Prior to this meeting, I've never physically cheated on anyone before in my life. Being with this man woke up things in me that have been dormant for a long time and all of a sudden I'm like a horny teenager with raging hormones who craves sex!! I'm already making arrangements to meet with this man again (he is a couple of stats away, so that's not an easy task).

If that weren't enough, yesterday, I get a random text message from my cousin's fiancee just saying hello. We work in the same town and he'd seen me drive by. I only ever see extended family a couple of times a year when we get together for the holidays. We sent several text messages back and forth and he made an inappropriate comment about wanting to see my breasts. I couldn't believe he was saying this to me and he immediately began trying to retract his statement saying that's not what he meant, it came out wrong, etc. I told him it was okay and that I wasn't offended. That seemed to open the flood gates and he began telling me all kinds of things he'd "always wanted to say to me" but felt was inappropriate. I know I should have stopped it, but I didn't. I wanted to hear it and I let him keep talking. I encouraged it and even participated once we agreed our conversation would be kept strictly between the two of us. The conversation progressed quickly to photos of body parts being exchanged. We decided we were both adults, we're both in relationships that are lacking sexually and if we decided to engage in a casual sexual relationship, it could be kept discrete, feelings could be kept out of it (or it would be stopped immediately), either party could stop it at any time without question and we'd just see where it goes. Today I met him at lunch and I had sex with my cousin's fiancee and I have every intention of meeting him again tomorrow.

What is wrong with me??!?? I feel like such a slut!!