So to start this off so everyone knows a little about the situation, I am married and have a child with my husband and one on the way and not so far back I did something that i regret doing all together i may not remember it but i read everything about it and it all says i did it. I was messaging someone other than my Husband online in great detail on how i would sexually please him and how we could do it and i even told him that i was at home and alone. mind you nothing really happened but this is the 5th time this kind of thing has come up, yes he has done similar things before but never more then once or twice and they haven't happened sense and now our marriage is hanging on a thread and a really bare one at that, He does not know if he is in love with me anymore and he does not know if we will be able to work out and says that if he is not in love with me anymore then he is going to divorce me and take our oldest leave me with the newborn but says he will not do it until the baby is atleast a month old ( i have a month left to go before the baby is born) I dont know how i can fix this i mean if i was in his shoes i would have killed me and make it look like i killed my self but that is besides the point, i dont know why i did this i mean im very happy with my husband and i dont blame him for what he feels/ dosnt feel but i would like to try and make this work i do not want to lose eveything we have/had, because Im a fuck up i dont not want to lose anything, and this is where the Dreams and Wishes comes into play i dream all the time sense this happened that i could go back and fix it but i know i cant so i wish i could make him see that he is still in love with me and that this will work out.... i have taken steps towards taking the "temptaions" out of my life i have blocked and deleted them off my FB, Yahoo every social thing is am apart of. I have been looking for some ways to make things better, i have even thought about getting help to see why i do this and why i dont remember doing things like that. Granted nothing ever went past the computer and my cell but i do not blame him for not beliveing my on that one too because i wouldn't..... I am just at a loss of what to do i have tired to give him space to think about it but its not working we do not want to do a trial separation because he does not belive that he would not do something wiht other women if the chance came up. I do not know why he has stayed so long in my life but i really do not want to see that end now we have been together for almost 4 years and married for (as of tomrrow) 2 years and i do not know what i can do I love him with all my heart and would go to the ends of the earth to fix this.