I have two choices:
Choice 1: Boyfriend of three years i love him so much but have cheated on him so many different times but i cant let him go. The thought of him not in my life or not as my boyfriend is unthinkable. I think how can i possible love someone so much but cheat of them at all. He fulfills my desires and everything. there is a future with us. I can see it. I cant break it off i just cant maybe its fear i don't know. I'm a bitch to love him he has no idea of all the stuff i have done behind his back. Every time i look at him it justs puts a smile on my face. his laugh and his smile...the way he looks at me just makes everything bad in the world go away. Tried to take a break from him he ran a mile in the rain and sobbed on the ground how much he loved me and he needed me. I now have a promise ring..i don't know if i deserve it.

Choice 2:My first love. Started in elementary school into middle and all through high. Off and on kinda thing until about six months ago. Its so serious and exotic. So much wonder and i feel so alive and carefree and loved. Cheating on current bf with him. I need to choose. My family and friends would hate in dating him. Everyday is like a new adventure. Its like an amazing dream. It can be my reality...

I dont know what to do...im in love with two different people...and i cant sleep at night. What do i do??