i've been married for 3 years now, and as far as i know everything is great. my husband pays a lot of attention to my needs and desires, treats me well, and we even have a date night every week. this week he is out of town on business and my computer is acting up, so i'm using his. i don't check his computer, but i downloaded a program i use on my computer, his is set up so it goes to a download folder and i had to go find it.

in the download folder i found folder marked "temp stuff" and i opened it. it was full of lesbian porn. i got so mad, thinking that he was doing porn and fantasizing about other woman. i was about to call him and really let him have it over the phone, but decided i'd wait until he got home.

as i thought and fumed about it, i started thinking so, he wants to see me with another woman... so how would he feel if i wanted to see him with another man?? him with another guy just stuck in my mind, i went to bed kind of chuckling about it, and woke to the thought of it and to the most needful feelings i've ever had in my life! i think about it all the time now and i really want to see him and another guy together.

i should also say that my husband loves to have me play with his bottom, and i've used my toy on him a few times and he has always enjoyed it. he has even asked me to "fuck him in the ass" a couple of times, so i don't think it would be a big stretch to have the real thing doing him.

the idea of this is really exciting to me, and i've had the thought that fair is fair, if i want him to do another guy for me, then i have to be willing to do lesbian sex for him. i think i could do that if he would be with another guy form me.

am i just a perv, maybe just horny from not having him around for over a week, or do you think this is normal?? i've even looked up gay porn to see if i really think i would enjoy it, and i so totally do. what do you think... should i see if i can bring it up with him or just forget it??