i listed as straight, but i probably should have selected bi: after years of thinking about being with my best friend i finally did it. i've known jane, not her real name, since we were kids and we do everything together. as long as i can remember she's always been my best friend. we share everything secrets, clothing, boyfriends, just everything. neither of us had ever talked about being with each other, or even any real bi or lesbian fantasies, but we talked about sex we've had, what we wanted to do with guys, and some what if's. we frequently did our sex chats together while helping each other get ready to go out. i'd thought about being with her since we were in high school: we were at a party and another girl sat down beside me and started coming on to me, i so was not ready for a girl/girl thing back then, but it stuck with me and kind of worked around in my head until i was having fantasies about it. the funny thing about it was that my fantasies were never about the girl that sat down by me at the party, they were always about being with jane. i was terrified to let on that i had any sexual thoughts about her. we had seen each other naked 1000's of times changing and trying on clothing, we'd even been fucked in the same room and seen each other getting it, but never sexually about each other. i'm rambling now... but basically a few months ago, i decided i was just going to do it.

i decided the next time we were getting ready for a party i'd bring it up and see if she felt or had the same thoughts i was having, or at least if she was interested in trying it. i made sure our talk that night was very sexual, we were both ready to fuck long before we left her apartment. i so chickened out though. i know, i know, but i so am not the type to take the lead like this. a couple weeks later, after beating myself up since my first chickening out, i decided that i had to do it.

so back at it... before i went over to her house to get ready i downed a shot of segrams. one gets me "uninhibited" when i really want to just go to a party for sex. while getting ready our chats were very sexual and i was very explicit. we were almost ready to go... my heart was pounding so much i thought for sure jane would see it almost leaping out of my chest. we were both well in the mood, but i so chickened out again. i was so mad at myself and disappointed in my total inability to bring up the fact that i wanted to be intimate with my best friend that some lucky guys totally had the best times of their lives that night. i so totally fucked their brains out just hating myself for not being with my best friend jane.

our next party night jane so wanted to get fucked. she was bringing up sex a lot during our chats while getting ready. i, on the other hand, was more following her lead; i had all but come to the conclusion that i was too chicken to bring it up or just ask her. we were both having a good time getting ready though. we decided to go braless and no panty. this would be great for our knit tubes and knew we'd have no problems picking guys looking to get lucky. jane put on her mac "russian red" lipstick that she wears when she's in a "i'm not going home until i've been fucked" mood. she applies it thick and flawlessly, when she turned and asked me what i think, i was probably as surprised as she was. but before i even realized what was happening, i was kissing her. not a little peck on the cheek or lips type of kiss. my lips on hers, tongue in her mouth, my boobs grinding against her, and my hands grabbing her ass type of kiss.

when i realized what i was doing, i let her go. shit, i actually said it out loud... "shit!", all i could do is look at the floor. i couldn't look at her, i was so scared my body was shaking and i had to lean against the wall to keep from falling over. i was not ready to do that, i just keep looking around the room, but my eyes kept to the floor afraid to look up. i so didn't want to see jane's horrified look after what i just did to her. it just kept going through my mind: "oh shit, what have i done... oh shit, what have it done...", and i started crying.

i was just about ready to run out the door and leap into traffic when i saw jane's feet infront of me. her voice was so warm and wonderful, her hands taking mine... she hugged me, and told me: "i love you. it's alright. we don't have to go out tonight."

she put my hands on her breasts and started kissing me. when her lips found mine, i went weak in the knees and she had to hold me. we just stood there, her holding me, kissing... for what seemed like a lifetime.

she lead me over to the bed and pulled my dress over my head, and i did the same for her. we just stood there looking, for the first time really looking, at each others naked bodies. oh, she is so gorgeous naked. neither of us are "hard bodies": we have soft curves, but no fat bulges. we both have c cup breasts and are 5' 8" tall, she's a redhead and i'm blonde. we both wear our hair down, mid back, and are shaved completely bare down there.

i must have still been crying because jane started to kiss my tears away. our bodies touched as we embraced. i could feel her hard nipples pressing into the soft flesh of my breasts and my nipples firming against her flesh. she stepped forward, pressing her knee between my legs which forced me back onto her bed. i laid there in the middle of her queen sized bed, my arms open and legs wide... longing for her touch.

she eased her body onto mine, her thigh pressing between my legs... i could already feel the wetness from me spreading across her flesh as she touched me. the weight of her body easing against mine... i gasped as i felt her hips settle against mine... her smooth tummy... our breasts pressing together... and our lips touching. her tongue teasing across my lips and pressing between... and down my throat. her hips started grinding against mine... i so didn't care at that point, i was already orgasming.

i cried, i screamed, i moaned... we made love all night long. the taste of my juices from her lips is exquisite. we tasted each other and drank from the pools of our love.

neither of us consider ourselves bi, we both still help each other get ready for parties and go out to get guy fucked. we've even done a 3-somes with one lucky guy. but on occasions we share each others love and passion. she is the only woman i've ever wanted to be with.

i will do anything for jane, she so knows me like no other has, does, or probably ever will.