This past weekend I did something that I know is probably going to get me in big trouble. I'll tell you this about me to try and explain. I am a 23 year old blonde haired, blue eyed Midwestern girl. I have been married for a year and half, since I graduated college. I know it sounds pathetic but my marriage is one of those things that I let my self get swept into and here I am. We both went to a big college here about three hours from Chicago. I was a gymnast and fitness model in school and my husband was one of the stud athletes in school. We only started dating our last year of school, though he had pursued me for more than that. Though I thought he was cute, and all my friends swooned over him, I thought he was a bit of a jerk. I was also leery because I knew 2 other girls he had dated and, though I wasn't close with either one of them, neither seemed to be to upset about not being with him anymore. I should have listened to that instinct, I guess.

So anyway, we start dating and he is sweet to me mostly but I caught him saying things that nagged at me. For instance, he mentioned several times that he hoped I wasn't jealous because he had been with many, many girls. As it happens, I'm not very jealous but once we started having sex I have to say that I expected it to be a lot more fulfilling, with his claims of so much experience. I, myself was not super experienced. I was with three other men before my husband. The first, the sex was fun and experimental but we were both very inexperienced and had no idea what to really do. The second was a short romance with a very cute, smart boy who I cared about but who literally came almost as soon as I took my clothes off. I thought it was sweet the first couple of times he came trying to put a condom on. But I finally ended it I decided to try and relax him and make him feel a little better and give him a blow job. But, as soon as I pulled his underwear down and stroked his cock he came. I don't mean to be mean or joke about it but it was silly. He had a nice cock but in two months of dating and several tries I never had it inside of me.

The third guy, for the record, was this chubby, not so cute guy that I worked with the summer before I started dating my husband. I really started dating the guy for no real good reason other than it was summer and I hadn't dated anyone in a long time. He was very nice, funny and very unabashed in his come ons towards me. He was the type of guy I never thought I'd date because he just wasn't physically appealing. It was a real treat though because we had fun and the sex with him was really fantastic. He just worshipped my body whenever we were together and the second time we had sex I had my first real orgasm. I think he knew I'd never really came, maybe I even told him, and he just went down on me and stayed their until I begged and screamed and came. He really loved to fuck me and we did it often and it was always good. Unlike the other guys I have or had dated I let him cum in mouth whenever he wanted. And he wanted a lot haha. I told him several times I was phobic about getting pregnant because one of my high school girlfriends had gotten pregnant and her life had been very difficult since. So when we fucked he never entered me (nor had any other man for that matter) without a condom. He seemed fine with that because whenever he made me cum I was happy to return the favor with my mouth.

I would have dated him a lot longer probably but I caught him twice trying to get me pregnant. The first time we were a little drunk and he begged and begged to let him try it for a second without a condom just to feel what it was like. I told him no and got a little upset with him for continuing to ask. He apologized and stopped and after a few minutes I let it go and we started playing around again. He put a condom on and we started fucking. Like usual it was good and we had been going for several minutes, when he turned me over to do me from behind. I loved the way he did that and he knew it. this time though when he entered me it felt different, very good, but different. Like I said, I was a little drunk and I let him fuck me for several seconds that way. I realized, however, that he seemed hurried and his cock felt very warm. I suddenly had a bad feeling so I pulled forward away from him and when I turned around I saw him cumming on the floor with not condom on. I was furious and yelled at him. He claimed it had came off when I pulled forward and seemed genuinely concerned. I was very freaked out and almost stormed out but he swore he had not came in me at all and swore he'd be more careful. But about a week later..... to be continued