Hi, my name's Nicky, I've been married to Rob for just under three years. In that time I've kept myself slim and fit by attending the gym twice a week and swimming once a week, something that Rob had hinted to me about not liking fat women. Rob however has put on lots of weight over the same period. He knows I don't fancy fat men and he knew that before we got married. In March we went on holiday and I'm not ashamed to say, I was embarrassed when we were around the pool or at the beach. If you would have seen us you would have thought, what is she doing with him. Only after looking at a picture that had been taken of us, did Rob fully realise how much weight he'd put on, easilly five stone. When we got back he promised to lose the weight, but only days after returning he was piling in the food. At the gym I met a guy called Jason (Jay) who knows Rob and we chatted about his weight gain. He told me if Rob wasn't prepared to lose some weight, then he obviously didn't think much of me. Over the next two days I thought about what he'd said. I spoke to Rob about it, not mentioning where I got the thought from, and he just shrugged, went into the kitchen and got himself a pie to eat. The following afternoon I met Jay again at the gym, I told him he was right and asked him if he thought I was attractive. My answer was taken at his flat when Jay and I spent the rest of the afternoon having sex. I'd forgotten what it felt like to be real close to someone who took care of himself and for the first time in a long time, I came whilst being fucked. We have continued having an affair and I honestly don't feel guilty. I went through the guilt trip for about a month, until Rob decided he wanted a few beers and a take away curry, rather have sex with me. Now I'm second guessing myself and wondering if I am being cruel to my husband or is the other way around. Should I have to put up with a man who clearly hasn't any self respect and one who disregarded our relationship in the first place.