I'm so ashamed and embarrassed and don't where to turn without causing trouble for my husband whose been in jail for the past year for stupid crap. He got into a fight with 4 guys that owed him money,he just went over there to see when they were going to pay him for mechanic work he had done for them. They jumped him and he somehow got loose and picked up a shovel leaning against thier house and defended himself putting 3 of them in the hospital but being my husband went to thier house and they are kin to the sheriff,my husband is charged with 3 counts felony battery with a deadly weapon and 1 charge of simple assualt and maybe facing 15 yrs if convicted. I have been going to see my husband every time they have visitation for a lil over a year and only twice I haven't been allowed to see him due to him being in solitary they said but only he wasn't in solitary they just didn't let me see him and he has woken up with guys standing next to his bunk with homeade knives like they were going to stab him in his sleep,then our sheriff calls me at home and says he needs to talk to me about my husband so I agree to come in but he said he had business that would take him near our house and he'd drop by later. I couldn't imagine what he had to say and he does drop by and he talks about everything from weather to what a nice house we have and after 25 minutes I'm curious and ask him is everything ok with my husband and he's yes,yes he's a model prisoner and everything's fine for now that is. I don't understand what do you mean for now,I thought he might be having trouble with another inmate or something. The sheriff walks over to me and by now I'm teary eyed not understanding then he starts in that I'm a very beautiful woman and it must get lonely living way out here with no man to protect me,it must get scarey with all the rapes and violate crimes you read about in the papers and TV. He continues about my husband going away for a long,long time leaving me unprotected from sexual predators just looking for a beautiful woman like yourself to take advantage and abuse that would be a pity. Then he goes on to what a pity if my husband should fall prey to being raped or killed in jail never to see his pretty wife again,never to walk on the free ground ever again. I'm asking him what do you mean is David in danger,why would he be in danger he doesn't bother anybody I'm sure of that,he goes on his riddle without specifying anything really. My heart is beating so damn hard and he hears it and he makes the statement if your hearts beating this hard now what are you going to do when a real criminal comes knocking David can't protect you. I kinda yell at him I can take care of myself should that happen and he says true but what about David can he protect himself from all those violate criminals he's locked up with and my nervousness turns to anger and I tell him that's his damn job is to make sure he and other inmates are safe. He says yeah true but we can't be right there 24/7 and it only takes a few minutes for someone die and it would be ashame to know you could've done something to help keep David safe but didn't,don't you think. I called him a crooked bastard and he laughs at me in my own living room at which point he tells me I'm a pretty thing and I bet you're a smart thing to. You do know what I'm talking about,don't you. I'm getting madder and bust out yeah I know what you're implying but I could never cheat on my husband even if he gets 50 years. He states how sorry he is to hear that and the next visitation just might be the county morgue. I threaten to tell someone and threatens that he just deny it and say I'm just bitter that my husband is behind bars where he belongs. He walked over to me put his right hand on my neck and said now lil girly you're much,much smarter than that and if David puts in for a transfer he'd see he wakes up in the morgue. I'm destraught and crying yelling why,why what have I done to you. What has David done to you for you to being doing this to us and he puts his arms around me,hugs me I was exhausted from grief but manage to shove him away screaming,NO,NO. I won't do this you bastard but he heads for the door and as he turns around he says think about it. I'll give you sometime to think about it. Then says don't worry you might just enjoy yourself a pretty thing like you shouldn't be left alone without a man and I'm happy to be of service. I sat around crying and the next day I went to visit David as I always did and he noticed I'd been crying and asked if I was ok and I lied to him about why I'd been crying and told him I was just missing him. I was missing him but it wasn't the main reason I'd been crying uncontrollably and when he told me these idiots were still trying to scare him for some reason I knew what I had to do to make sure he was safe and I was certain the sheriff would make good on his threat and it took him 3 days before he came by the house and when I answered a knock at the door my heart sunk when it was him standing there. He said hello pretty lady. How are you. I didn't say anything at first just stood there standing trembling hoping it was a bad dream but it wasn't. He tells me noone came to confront him with any allegations and he took that as I accepted his offer. I told him I guess so,do I really have a choice and he said No,No you have a choice,it's completely up to you if my husband survives his stay at his jail. I fired back that's what you call a choice and he says I can tell you love David very much or wouldn't be doing this. Now let's get down to the business at hand,that's just how he said it. Let's get down to the business at hand. Then he tells me I should have dressed up and to change into something sexy and fix my hair. I go in the bedroom and he tells me leave the door open and he goes to the fridge and pours him a glass of tea and comes back stands in the door while I'm getting myself together and I come out and he tells me no,no stay in the bedroom. No sooner am I dressed he tells me to just stand there and model for him as he constantly complimenting me on how beautiful I was,how David was a lucky man to have a woman with such a nice body and tiny waist. I am feeling nauseaous but keep it together knowing what was coming and I won't relive everything that went on but I put as little effort as possible into it and was glad when it was over and he struts around gets another glass of tea before he leaves and tells me he'll see me later but it was sooner than later he was back here before lunch the next day. I can't tell you how agonizing it is to give yourself to someone you have no interest in especially under these circumstances but I do it because I'm scared for me and David and it's not easy keeping this from David but it is easy at the same because he can never find out. I don't know to get this to end I don't why this is happening to us and even thought of doing some extreme things to myself so things will change but it's not fair that I can't look pretty for my husband but I'm at my witts end and won't it to stop. I would really appreciate all your prayers sincerely. If anyone can see away out for me in this situation email me please. jtdelaneyaol