I have dreams of being abused by other women. It's like a BD/SM thing where they slap me around and make me sexually please them. If the dream gets very abusive I wake and can feel where I was hit and sometimes it's even red. I've been having there type of dreams since I became sexually active in middle school. I am NOT attracted to women in real life. If my abuser in my dream makes me orgasm, then I wake orgasming for real. This is really starting to bug me, but I just cannot see myself with a woman. I've actually tried to get "friendly" a couple of times, but I am really not attracted to women, and in real life I actually find it a kind of repulsive to think about.

I guess I'm a confused lesbian submissive, but only in my dreams.