I was a massive pervert of epic proportions and sometimes got caught. As in I would forget to delete my history...yeah. At least one family member (younger sis) knows I'm a huge pervert because she saw my history and would peek over my shoulder when I wasn't paying attention. At one point I tried to own act open with it but it didn't last long. Most people knew I was a little weird. One day a guy teased me and said I was looking at porn. He had no idea I did since he never caught me or looked at my computer. But he was the brother of my sisters boyfriend. Perhaps he told her. Well he dumped her after he slept with her so if she did tell serves her right. Anyway, I've since then changed but the fact is I still looked at graphic stuff like that. I'm a girl so that makes it worse. Now I'm pure hearted and minded (sort of..???????? Or more covert????????..more covert..I hate myself..) I just feel so ashamed.

For the curious: I looked at hentai stuff often. Yaoi, yuri, weird monster stuff. I now play pervy videogames aimed at guys full of women with big bouncing boobs in skimpy clothes. I enjoy them. Ar Tonelico Qoga is such a game. I just feel so ashamed. Some people in my family view me as the pure one. They insist that I am. I really feel like I'm a dirty person.

I wish I could genuinely be as pure as people think I am.

Is this normal???? Are any other girls similar to me at all???? Am I really a freak???? I think I am.