I'd been seeing the same escort for the five years. She was a sweet 21 year-old when I met her. We stopped having sex two years ago. She was the only one I ever used because she made me feel comfortable and safe with her. She treated me well and I treated her well and enjoyed our time together. We became pretty good friends. She was a good person to talk with when I was having problems. All these years and my wife never suspected a thing. My marriage was shot when I started seeing my escort friend. My time with her cleared up a lot of my marriage issues and other things I was dealing with in my head and my marriage became the strongest it had ever been. I still talked with my friend frequently and had lunch with her once in awhile but I kind of outgrew the sex part of our relationship.

Detectives came to see me recently. Someone murdered my friend and they found my number in her phone and knew how often we spoke. People at her apartment building identified me and my car as frequent visitors in the past who didn't come around much anymore.

They interviewed me for a long time. At first I lied because I didn't want my wife to find out. They saw right through me so I told them the truth. They don't think I did it so I'm off the hook there (I didn't). They are tracking down all her clients. They hoped I'd know who did it or could point them in the right direction. I don't know who hurt her.

I was going to try to bullshit my wife but knew that would make it worse. She knew the cops talked with me and it was only a matter of time until it all came out. I didn't go home for a long time and when I finally did she was waiting and sick with worry. I've never seen her so upset as she was after I told her the truth. She doesn't understand. She asked me to move out, of course. Now I'm renting a little shit room by myself. Of the only two people I ever felt comfortable confiding in, one is gone and the other one won't speak to me. I need someone to talk with but there's nobody. I miss them both terribly.