I'd honestly never had a gay fantasy before in my life. I was thirteen and deep in the throes of puberty. Horny nearly every waking second, I was masturbating a half dozen times a day. But always to fantasies of women I'd seen or girls I knew from school.
Then while visiting my aunt's house one day, I found her 6-inch flesh tone dildo. It looked so real, it even had balls at the base. I traced my fingers over the simulated "veins" in the shaft. I stole it.
Back home in my bedroom I locked my door and examined the cock. It really turned me on. I didn't really think about the fact it had been in my aunt's old snatch (an idea that may have put me off doing what I did next). All I knew is, it was beautiful and just holding it made me hard.
I licked it and sucked it. I rubbed it against my own cock and balls. I spread my legs and tried to stick it in my ass, but I couldn't. I'd need something to make it slippery. About 3 days later I found the KY in my parents bedroom closet, hidden in the little box where they kept their body paints and other sex stuff that they didn't think I knew about.
The first time I anal fucked myself, it hurt a little and I even bled a little. But I never came so intensely in my life as when I masturbated with my right hand and anal fucked myself with the left and the dildo. I shot a wad about a foot into the air and watched it splatter back down across my stomach.
From that point on I was constantly ass fucking myself.
Nowadays I have a massive array of dildos, vibrators, butt plugs and sex toys of all size and description at home. From time to time I like a real cock inside of me, but at heart I've always been a loner. I love a nice thick dick, but I don't love the drama attached to the other end of it. So I shy away from relationships.