I seriously want to fuck david and I know its dirty to feel this way but I have been thinking about him a lot and I want him. there is a lot of reasons why I do.

the thing is that I can't see it working for us the way I want it to. and I am disappointed that he cheated me like the knife boy.

I don't know if I should trust david or not... his age and he seems secretive for a reason. did he destroy my life as some joke??

but if I could I would fuck him for sure.

there is always other guys, cus I am ill from fighting. I have already masturbated thinking about him. when I orgasmed I cried and said to him in my head..."just kill her, get her out of my life so I can get a life and live" then I wondered should I go to ben or someone else?? but I really like david for some reason. its just that I can't see it working if he was with my sister as well.

I don't want him with other relatives. GOD... I am not that desperate.

this is crazy!