I met a south American girl so beautiful and sexy voice and we were friends straight away. but she told me that this man was upsetting her saying things so I wondered if it was ricky. I knew ricky as a child. ricky is like a sex bomb to a womans desires and the shit of thing knows what he does to me... he had me fucking masturbating like nuts as a child. fuck I cried like fucking hell on earth when I seen his photos. I layed over my bed half out of bed with my head hanging down crying for years, before and after I was raped... after I was raped I cried because they made me have an abortion (thank god to).

francia was a lovely girl but got the fuck on with William one night. francia and ricky say... "you can tell me cathryn. you can trust me" or rick would say "why didn't you tell me earlier" and I got angry at that. I wanted to trust them, but when I was last at the university campus a south American woman who was chubby was there and I felt a impulse of energy that was telling me to fuck off.

then I met a radiologist who was in rickys picts and its not ricky at all.

I have to have more heart tests soon. don't let me down david.

david... if I say this to you, please see it from my side "why should I care about William when he deceived me all that time?? sneaking around."

my mum is on there side. sure I am sort of but I give up on William. I give up because he is married now with a baby.

how long was I supposed to wait, when I wanted a baby back in my teens and twenties and someone keeps stopping me get with guys I like.

please keep that man who raped me away from me or I will die!

I know love comes and goes. but for now I love you david, even if its wrong.

PEOPLE HATE ME. I WAS A HATED CHILD. ITS MADE ME FROZEN AND I COULD KILL LIKE A NAZI GAS KILLER AND NOT CARE ABOUT ANYONE. ITS LIKE A POSSESSION OF A NAZI KILLERS ANGRY SPIRIT COMES OVER ME. I COULD KILL HALF THE WORLD AND NOT CARE.