I would do it for the money. ok I would easy like to wrap a barb wire noose around any persons neck who has hurt me. especially joyce. she does not know how I could kill her and enjoy watching it. I know that sounds awful but that is what she has made me. I wish I could get a barb wire and strangle her. I have fantasies of unbridled killing riot style or whatever. those thoughts would have once frightened me now they are thoughts and feelings I feel several times a day. I don' like feeling this way and wish things were different.

YOU SHOULD FEEL THE ANGER IN MY BODY.