i guess this is kind of a rant and a confession. i'm above average looking, 38C bust with a 24 inch waist and 36 inch hips. i and my family are not unfortunate in our facial assets either. my grandparents look good, my mom and dad look good, and i look good. nothing real surprising there. i really enjoy looking good. i love the compliments i get, i even went as far as taking lessons at a local beauty college to lean how to apply my makeup and "enhance" looking good. so i guess what i'm trying to say is i look good, i love wearing makeup, and i don't look like a whore doing it.

as a rule i don't sleep with a guy on the first date, basically, to put it in terms you guys will understand, i want to see if he's the gentleman i want before he gets to see if i'm the slut he desires.

a few weeks back i dumped my old bf, i was starting to get wandering eyes. so it was time. last week i met a guy at a club and we seemed to hit it off together, and he was the "oh, so perfect gentleman." totally a hunk of man candy too. so i wanted to make a clean start with him. i dumped all my old makeup, and went down and bought new. Over 300 buck for good basics including some lip plumper and 40 for some nice russian red by mac.

saturday night he shows up to pick me up and we're heading out clubbing. i totally looked good, knit tube, garters and stocking with tops showing, 5 inch heels, and my new "facial necessities". fist thing that comes out of his mouth was, "that red lipstick makes you look like a whore.", then he tells me that, "historically red lipstick was an advertisement that whore wearing it would suck cock."

really?? i looked like i just came off a photo shoot at Vogue! and he's telling me i look like a whore! i so just slapped his face and left. i mean i was photo shoot model gorgeous and all he could do is tell me i looked like a whore! i've had to dump my cell call log 3 times since because of the missed calls from him. i'll so never ever do anything with him.

so much for the rant. here's my confession now. since he told me about the "historical" importance of red lipstick, i cannot get it out of my mind. i love my russian red and when i put it on, i keep thinking about "historical advertisement value", and i find myself thinking about sucking cock. it's only been a couple of days and when ever i see the tube now, i start thinking about sucking cock.

i thought maybe i've just got sex on the brain, so i took care of that with my toys until i was sure i was not in any type of physical need. but when i see that tube of lipstick, i instantly think about sucking cock again. it so makes my lips look great, and i'm not throwing it away. not a 40 dollar tube of lipstick!

i so hate that dumbass, and i wish he'd quit calling!