I am obsessed with my bbw girl friend fucking men and degrading me. I have been with her for 5 years, in that time she sucked a neighbor's cousin dick, and then told me about the next day. After that over a period of 4 years she has fucked a friend of mine maybe 30 times. She makes me hide outside the door, or peak over the foot board if I am lucky. the first time she met him I had told her that it was ok for her to make a move on him. within 15 minutes she was sucking his dick right in front of me. I had been with her 2 years and had maybe one bj. that night i groveled in the hall and played with my spastic tool while i listened them fucking and sucking, whispering the whole time. At one point I just walked in on them and she was laying on her back licking his balls! "get the fuck out!" she yelled at me.I had my dick in my hand and it shot come on both them. maybe the 5 nut I had gotten from nothing. I couldn't and can't stand it. I can't fuck her for 2 minutes without coming, and she never lets me and always complains when she does. I could see that fucking another guy was different. Like i'm less macho and she could tell. over the next few years I don't know how often he had her. I would jack off like 3 or 4 times each night just from peeking and listening. by the second time he came over they would fuck like dogs all night. One day he fucked her while I watched her kids. he left, she told me to follow her back to bed room, she dropped he drawers and lay back legs spread. More come then i had ever seen just rolled out of her. I licked it and rubbed it and rubbed my dick in it and jacked of in it and shot 2 small clear jets of my own. i asked her in a personal way if he did that often and she said that he did, and i told her that i loved it and she said she did to. she said my seed was pathetic and that my cock wasn't allowed to come in her anymore. I never got any sex unless he had been around. a month would go buy and nothing, then he would come treat her like the slut she is and I was allowed to follow after he left. I get ridiculed by her for having a soft dick and coming to fast. in 5 years i haven't had 5 good bjs. She says she loves to suck cock, and I have seen her and heard about her doing it a whole lot.
I got drunk the last time he was here, and don't really remember it. I'm not bringing him back anymore more because he owns my woman's twat. I would watch her fuck anybody anytime, I love every bit of it and it makes me feel so high. i could, but i am loathe to do so. What if she runs me off for the new guy???????? I love her and she says she loves me. We never talk about sex, and when we do she says she wants some strange cock but I won't let her have it, like i have to bring it in myself. I don't know what to do.