me and my nervous breakdowns, its like living in a babies body with night terrors and unable to speak the madness of horrors and visions from past lives or hell or pain, psychotic episodic feelings, depression and neurotic fear. I try to live normal around others but the truth is it does not last long before the next outbreak, no one is allowed in after work hours. just me and my personal mental hell day in and day out. people around me think I am normal but I can't maintain relationships at all.