All through my life, I've had multiple crushes on famous people such as musicians, actors or YouTubers. I've always attributed them to my young age and infatuation with seemingly perfect guys I would never be able to meet let alone date. Lately, I feel truly in love with a YouTuber whom I adore and I can't tell my friends that some of the strongest orgasms I've had, I've had them thinking about him. I don't want my friends to think I'm perverted but everytime I think of that guy's face, hands, lips, body in general, I feel the need to touch myself until I'm nothing more than a quivering little ball lying in the shower, bed and sometimes even breakfast bar. And even though I can't tell anyone about this, this is something I'm not willing to give up because I've never felt as good as I do when I'm screaming his name while my insides close in around my fingers.