I fell in love with another man while cheating on my boyfriend. He always seemed like a big teddy bear to me. So lets just call him teddy. Teddy an I met at a concert my friends ha dragged me to. My boyfriend wasn't into the sort of thing and was still living with his parents, and also ha no money for a ticket. Anyway, teddy and I hit it off from there. I don't know why I told him I was single, It just kind of came out. We went on a few dates, actual dates. Unlike my boyfriend, who's version of a nice date is a romp in an empty parking lot. Teddy and I eventually had sex, and boy was it great sex. He was a big burly strong man with a rather large package if I may add. He made me feel like a woman. He had a job, was a musician like myself. Which was also very nice because my boyfriend didnt understand a word I was talking about when it came to crescendos and formatas. But above all, teddy and I had a connection, we had so much in common you'd think we were the same person. Teddy was a very godly man. He wanted to study to be a priest. I loved him so much. But the thought of loosing my boyfriend was unbearable. I loved his family, I loved him too. I didn't want to loose everything. So alas, the affare lasted two years. That's when I found out I was pregnant. It was obviously Teddy's. but I told my boyfriend it was his. We told our family's. I didn't want to do to teddy what I did to my boyfriend. I didn't want to ruin his future. I loved him too much to have him throw away the opportunity to become a priest and help others the way he helped me. So I just ended it. I told him it couldn't work out. And that was that. My boyfriend was great. He stayed by my side the whole way. My pregnancy really helped him become a stronger person than he was. He finally moved out of his parents house, got a job, finished school, even have me the opportunity to stay at home for the rest of my pregnancy. We rekindled our relationship, and it was if we fell in love all over again. Our son was born, and it was beautiful. Everyone came to see the baby. My boyfriend was a wonderful father, better than i thought. And we all lived happily ever after as a family.....

Months later, I start attending church again, after hearing from a friend that teddy moved away. My son and I went to the services every Sunday for a good month....

Until today. We were leaving to our car when somebody called my name. My heart stopped. Could it be?? I turned around and to my amazement, it was teddy. He looked hansome as ever. He grew out his facial hair a bit, and had looked a bit more muscular. He looked great. I instantly pulled the hood of the stroller over my son. So teddy couldn't see him. He walked over and we awkwardly talked. Ya know, how's the weather?? How's life?? Why did you think of the service??, that whole shpeal. He then mentioned he heard from a friend that I had a baby. He wanted to see. So I opened he good and prayed he wouldn't notice the resemblance. He asked if the father was around, I nervously answered "kind of". But after that, he just casually hugged me and said it was great to see me. After that I left. All these old feelings came swelling up. i never once stoped thinking about him, i still love him. I cried on the drive home.

My boyfriend has given me a good life, and he loves our son. But with teddy back in my life I asking myself questions I know I shouldn't. I will be going to church again this Sunday, and I really hope he is there.... What should I do??????

P.S. please don't respond to this with inappropriate comments and language, I am asking for support and advice, not perverted remarks