Ever since then, I have developed an extremely strong fantasy about her. I can get my dick rock hard sooo quickly just thinking about her. I could not resist her so I have acted on my desire in many ways. My earliest action was when we were both in the basement doing some chores. Once we finished, I purposefully let her go up the stares first so I could stare at her ass. I walked RIGHT behind her, as close as I could without touching her and my face was literally right behind her sexy bubble butt. She turned around and noticed my face almost in her ass and she immediately turned around and went up the stares.
Next I escalated to her lingerie. When no one was home, I found her dirty panties and bra, sniffed them like crazy and jacked off. I did this a couple of times.
I knew her routine very well, and noticed that after she takes a shower, she changes her clothes in her room. When she took a shower, I quickly entered her room, setup my phones camera and hid it at the top of her closet. I did this twice. The first time went well but the camera angle was a little off and all I could see was her body from the stomach down. It was amazing being able to see her sexy nude body for the first time but I needed more.
The second time, she went for a shower as expected and I tried to set up the camera but she surprised me because she forgot something in her room and caught me there. I told her I was looking for something (don't remember what) but it was very weird and suspicious. She must have been wondering what I was doing in her closet. When she went back for a shower, I decided to go on with recording her anyway. I was thinking with my dick and not my brain.
The footage was incredible. I could see her entire body and she was getting ready to change her clothes. But the she CLEARLY LOOKED RIGHT IN THE CAMERA. She saw it, I have no doubt, and looked at it in a shocked way for like 10 seconds. She then just ignored it and changed her clothes like nothing happened. I saw her entire body nude and jacked off like crazy. But once I was done, I was expecting to be in deep trouble and felt guilty and deleted everything. I was ready for what was to come but was surprised when nothing happened. If she told my mom what had happened, I would be in deep trouble for sure so I am certain she hasn't told anyone.
Eventually they moved and I thought about ways to finally confront her and fuck her at her home. When she was alone at her home, I came over to "visit", though I was planning on seducing and fucking. I completely choked and ended up having a casual family visit. But I could not hide the full out, complete boner the entire half an hour. The bulge in my pants was obvious and I saw she noticed. She ignored it the entire time. But when I was leaving, she seductively posed at the doorway and said bye.
Its been a few years since these events and I was young and inexperienced. But now I've got game and i'm pretty confident I could fuck her. But I can't decide if I should or shouldn't
Pros:
She has seen me with a boner caused by her and was fine with it.
She caught me trying to record her. She still took off her clothes, recorded her nude body and told no one.
I don't care about our relationship and what could happen to it. I wouldn't miss her at all if we never talked again.
I am very sexually attracted to her and the fantasy factor will probably make it the best sex in my life.
Cons:
I'm not racist and find all women beautiful, but I don't waste time with any women who is not white since I am most attracted to white women (why spend time on anything other than what I think is the best??). My aunt is not caucasian and is the only non-caucasian women I find equally attractive to white women. I'm considering this as a sign that maybe i'm being really stupid and risky because of a dumb sexual fantasy.
If my family finds out, it would be really bad. I would never show my face to them again. From that point on, I would have no family.
I've got game and I know she finds me attractive. I don't need advice on what to do. What I need help with is deciding if I should go for her or not.


