I wish it was my cheating heart. It's not. It's my girlfriend of five years. I am a sex addict, and to make a very long story short , my pornogrpahy addiction ruined the relationship .while in recovery, we went on a break though we still talked everyday. She slept with three people, and I slept with two. That part was hard enough to get over, but she continued to lie about it. I got emails from a kid she was talking to, asking me to stop contacting her because they were going out...she denied all of this. We worked through it, and every few months this kid would somehow pop up again. Whether it was calling her, or her going to see him. This was months ago, and I thought all of this shit was finally behind us, but today I snooped around on her computer and found a shirtless picture of this kid downloaded from her mail. And what's more is that she is constantly checking her mail through out the day. I'm sitting at her house waiting for her to come home from work since I have the day off and then I am going to confront her. I know she's still lying and seeing this kid, I just don't know if they are fucking or not....that's the only thing I can tell myself at this point to gain any type of comfort. I've toyed with the idea of screwing a few girls on the side and not evening telling her what I found but what I'd is that really going to do. She is my world and I wanted to marry her and have kids but I cannot be with a lair and a cheat. The whole thing gives me fucking anxiety like nothing else. I know there's nothing that anybidy in here can say that I haven't heard before but I'm by myself and need to vent.