I don't think I would cry as much if I had had a fulfilling love life and sex life. but I have not at all. and that is what makes me feel so awful, so jaded and helpless and self hating, so sad and yeh I guess I feel sorry for myself but I am fragile like that. and people wonder why I don't like to be touched.
I cried when I got this itch as a virgin as well from my sister using my underpants.
it didn't seem fair at all having a herpes or whatever it was while a virgin and I felt so dirty ... like as if I could even offer my cunt to man and as if he would want it like that.
I was and am still a mess of skin disorders and unexplainable illness that do break me down and cry a lot.
like I said, I really would not feel sorry for myself if I had been married several times and had great sex for years and had a nice married life with a baby.... but I have had none of those things.
I was forced fucked by a demon devil and I hated him.