i had a very difficult time in HS, schoolwork was not a problem, but the new social structure was very difficult for me. my friends all went to different groups and i could go with them, but i just didn't fit in. HS was the most frustrating time of my life. so when i graduated in June, i talked with my parents about me taking the summer off to relax and try to start enjoying life again. much to my amazement they agreed, so all summer i've been doing what ever i want. problem is--i don't want to do anything.

i'm the youngest. my mom and dad both work, my siblings have all moved out to be on their own or to attend college, and most of my friends work so i've have a lot of alone time during the day. this was fine for the first couple of weeks. i'd sleep late, hang around the house in my pajamas, have breakfast sometime, do a little tanning, read and etc. boring! really, really fast i became completely bored out of my mind.

i started to visit online chat rooms and eventually adult chat rooms, which a lot of them are not much better than nauseating because of guys wanting to "chat" or cam. i started visiting a girls only room that was adult oriented that was all about Domination and submission.

at first i was ignored, but i stayed because i enjoyed the room banter and pics. eventually a couple of the regulars started to talk to me and i really started to enjoy it. mostly we just talked and played some truth or dare, but then one of the Dommes from England started to talk to me. it's like She has known me all of my life or has the ability to look down right into my inner most thoughts and pull out the things i so would never do or even admit, but that she wants from me.

this all started out harmless enough, but has gotten deeper and darker as we have progressed. She will give me 2 hours a day, where i serve Her online in a video chat. my day starts now when my parents leave for work 7AM. i get up and send Her an email telling Her i am awake and preparing to serve Her, which she will later answer with instruction on what i am to wear that day and any tasks she may have for me to do. i then must shower, wash my hair (my hair is mid back length), shave my legs and arms and and bikini area (bare), dry, and then put on my collar (thin black studded dog collar), and then i may have breakfast--one 12oz glass of yogurt smoothie. after i'm done i have to wash anything i used making breakfast and clean the shower from my use, then apply my dark red lipstick (Maybelline "On Fire"). after all of this, i am to meet Her online at 9AM sharp.

each session with Her is spent in receiving instruction and Her answer questions on what i am to do that day, and Her watching me perform sexually for Her. She teases me sexually for most of the 2 hours we are together. if i please Her, then i will be "allowed" to orgasm as She watches or i may be required to orgasm several times while She watches. if i do not please Her, then She denies me permission for satisfaction and i must perform without having an orgasm which often leaves me panting and crying trying to obey Her requirement to not orgasm. i am required to sleep naked and not wear any clothing until after our session, and then only just before my parents are expected home or i am going out. if i come back home before my parents i am required to strip until just before their expected time back. after my parents are home or on days they do not work, my life is fairly normal except for wearing only clothing approved and listed in Mistress' email for that particular day and accomplishing any tasks She may have for me to do during our off hours.

i love this!!! the pain, pleasure, humiliation, and reward that i go though on a daily basis. i live to serve Her. i don't want it to stop, but next week my agreement for a carefree summer come to an end, and i have to get a job. i've discussed this with Mistress and She says my session is 9AM to 11AM, my time, if i cannot make that time, then we are through. i don't want this to stop! i'm terrified my parents will not understand me not going out to find a job until about noon every day, and when they question me it might slip out what i'm really doing all morning. HELP!!! what should i do??