I have always had fantasized about being a girl.. Infact I even have dressed up many a times in girlie clothes and pretended to be one.. But its a secret and no one can ever know about it.. But I have this urge of sucking cocks (black, big, thick, long, curved) which I can't resist the feeling of.. My mouth waters as I watch the videos, pics or any bulge in a man's pants.. I get so horny and somehow have to control myself.. For this, I even have started playing with my ass and inserting toys in it, but I am not gay (coz I am still into women and get hard when I see a really hot one). Or maybe I get hard coz I wanna be like her.. I know nothing what's gotten into me but its driving me crazy..
Recently I have even started having dreams where I am being held as a sex-slave by a bunch of sexy shemales who are planning on raping me one by one after dressing me up like a whore with high heels etc. In that dream I am being treated as a dirty little cock-sucking whore of theirs. And when I wake-up from that dream, I am generally all wet down below and drooling..
I don't really know what is happening but I can say for sure that I am loving the feeling of being a submissive whore even if its in a dream.. And now I really wish this could be a reality for me someday.. Maybe I would turn to a fully passable sissy then.. I would cum only from penetrations and would cum while being all limp.. All time in a collar with a leash in my master/mistress's hand ready to serve him/her.. Be it in public or private, I would crave humiliation only..
My only aim would be to pleasure and satisfy others (women, men, transwomen)