Straight Female / 41
a girl wrote
"infatuated with someone because i was infatuated with them. the only reason. "
I replyed "I understand!!! same happened to me!"
a girl I knew in my first year at university worked out I had a serious crush on a boy she worked on counter moving me every time. she would flirt with him in my company when I was trying to play cool and un-heavy about my love for him. I mean some men really hate girls being too sexual (that is my experience anyway, no matter what I do it seems to be the wrong move... too sweet he sees it has too Pollyanna, too cool... he sees it as passed off like "oh uh no big deal", be bold ...he sees it has disgraceful, too shy or reserved and I am boring and un-adult in his eyes)...
everywhere I go this bitch turns up fucking it in my face about how she sees him often "oh I seen your little (whatsyname) at the canteen or class hall" or whatever...
she would say "oh I just has such hot sex this morning" I say "well good luck to you, I never get that" or of the like... she says "I am going to embarrass you into fucking just any man "
the more she keeps pushing into my scene with this boy I like from my childhood I am breaking down with raging anger and jealousy, I get bashed in the city and sexually assaulted, yet another teacher flirts with me again... I suffer panic attacks out of hell everywhere, bus, train, class, doctors surgery.
all the time its "I don't like her I want to make a fool of this doggy" this so called slut friend who is so fucken ugly... you are so so so so so fucken ugly girl I am wondering where you get a nerve being such a bitch to me constantly asking me "do you like glen??' I say no "glen has a girlfriend I know her anyway, I want something better honey babe"
anyway girlfriend caroline with a big fat arse keeps pushing in everywhere... I sit on the bus after class with (boy) and she has to push in and control... she turns up lolling all over him at movies. I grow to hate her, I show my mum her accidently while at campus... my mother is like she is not much... to me she is SHIT HELL COMPETITION.
I GIVE UP FEELING BEATEN AND BRUISED AFTER BEING BASHED AND HAVING A PANIC ATTACK IN CLASS... TEACHER NOTICES BUT SAYS NOTHING... I KEEP HAVING PANIC ATTACKS AND HAVE TO GIVE UP CLASSES I JUST CAN'T COPE... WHAT IF I HAVE ANOTHER PANIC ATTACK IN CLASS AND I CAN NOT COPE.
JUST DON'T BRING UP THE WORD "RAPE" OR "MOLESTATION" OR "SEXUAL ABUSE" BECAUSE I CAN'T COPE. THIS IS WHY I CAN'T FACE THAT RAPIST IN COURT OR EVER AGAIN.
STILL NOT A GROWN UP IN POORTERS BOOK ... WILL NEVER MAKE HER GRADE. OH WELL, BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME CINDY !!!!!!!! TATTLE TALE... NICK WANTS TO PAY YOU BACK ANY WAY HE CAN BECAUSE YOU TATTLED.
"infatuated with someone because i was infatuated with them. the only reason. "
I replyed "I understand!!! same happened to me!"
a girl I knew in my first year at university worked out I had a serious crush on a boy she worked on counter moving me every time. she would flirt with him in my company when I was trying to play cool and un-heavy about my love for him. I mean some men really hate girls being too sexual (that is my experience anyway, no matter what I do it seems to be the wrong move... too sweet he sees it has too Pollyanna, too cool... he sees it as passed off like "oh uh no big deal", be bold ...he sees it has disgraceful, too shy or reserved and I am boring and un-adult in his eyes)...
everywhere I go this bitch turns up fucking it in my face about how she sees him often "oh I seen your little (whatsyname) at the canteen or class hall" or whatever...
she would say "oh I just has such hot sex this morning" I say "well good luck to you, I never get that" or of the like... she says "I am going to embarrass you into fucking just any man "
the more she keeps pushing into my scene with this boy I like from my childhood I am breaking down with raging anger and jealousy, I get bashed in the city and sexually assaulted, yet another teacher flirts with me again... I suffer panic attacks out of hell everywhere, bus, train, class, doctors surgery.
all the time its "I don't like her I want to make a fool of this doggy" this so called slut friend who is so fucken ugly... you are so so so so so fucken ugly girl I am wondering where you get a nerve being such a bitch to me constantly asking me "do you like glen??' I say no "glen has a girlfriend I know her anyway, I want something better honey babe"
anyway girlfriend caroline with a big fat arse keeps pushing in everywhere... I sit on the bus after class with (boy) and she has to push in and control... she turns up lolling all over him at movies. I grow to hate her, I show my mum her accidently while at campus... my mother is like she is not much... to me she is SHIT HELL COMPETITION.
I GIVE UP FEELING BEATEN AND BRUISED AFTER BEING BASHED AND HAVING A PANIC ATTACK IN CLASS... TEACHER NOTICES BUT SAYS NOTHING... I KEEP HAVING PANIC ATTACKS AND HAVE TO GIVE UP CLASSES I JUST CAN'T COPE... WHAT IF I HAVE ANOTHER PANIC ATTACK IN CLASS AND I CAN NOT COPE.
JUST DON'T BRING UP THE WORD "RAPE" OR "MOLESTATION" OR "SEXUAL ABUSE" BECAUSE I CAN'T COPE. THIS IS WHY I CAN'T FACE THAT RAPIST IN COURT OR EVER AGAIN.
STILL NOT A GROWN UP IN POORTERS BOOK ... WILL NEVER MAKE HER GRADE. OH WELL, BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME CINDY !!!!!!!! TATTLE TALE... NICK WANTS TO PAY YOU BACK ANY WAY HE CAN BECAUSE YOU TATTLED.
