I got into an untimely discussion recently with a rival who can't keep her bitch controlling and business to herself. we got talking about fetish and creative erotic writing and sexual fears or hangups and I told her a few of mine in confidence she promised me she would have an open mind about anything I had to say, weeks went by and we started meeting and exchanging erotic stories and discussion sexual desires and fears, being a BFF I thought I could share anything with her we talked about how I have a dislike for black penises. as far back as I can remember I liked white penises over black ones as most black men have too bigger penises for most white women anyway and have too much ego about how they think they are better sexually then white men in bed. I find black men sexually unappealing and dislike their sexual ego and find black women now are getting worse in that way as well that they think they are all gods gift to any man. she understood this herself being part ethnic she told me she understood my feelings yet didn't share them because of her own background.

I struggle with self esteem issues over sex and hardly ever have sex due to my fears. I just find that writing out how I feel helps me to deal with my issues and sexual curiosity and preferences. she told me that she prefers black men sexually over white men because it was her comfort zone being with her own color. I understood. She said she did like bi-white girl relationships however over same race bi-girls. I asked why she said that it was that she liked the dominatrix part of getting on top of a white woman. I was shocked because for all the years I had known her I never felt threatened by her or even her near when I chat to my online boyfriend etc. she said that was because I did not turn her on. later I thought "I guess I should be greatful" a black bi-dominant chick with a dick was hard to swallow in that situation for me. then I stopped seeing her or trusting her for some reason.


I don't like black skin sexually at all, but I don't see myself as racist, I just don't like them sexually. she asked me why I was not coming around as much and I said that is was because I was feeling that she was trying a domination role over me and she wanted her way over so many white men.

I hope I am forgiven in telling the truth.

sometimes these things have to be said or it hurts more later then a cucumber or baseball bat up your butt hole, so went home and my white love interest gave me the two thumbs up for being so bold and honest about my situation (huge leap of faith for me) that one because he knows that widening my literature or creative instincts and interest does not mean I have to break down others to win his love and approval. he takes me as I am. I hope my ethnic friend can grow up from her need to dominate and control white women so much and get on with her same color love because what she does is rather boring and unkind.

I hope I can find a ethnic female friend who will not abuse me like this all the time, as it just makes things so difficult.

she judges people and yet things she is so much better then white women sexually. well I tell the truth black girl and I never had a racist bone in my body til I met you and seen your sexual dominating for myself.