I frequently crossdress and found that I like it more than just the sexual thrill. I dress fully done up. Panties,Bra, miniskirt or short dress.

I find that when watching porn that I imagine my self the woman in the picture. I have no attraction to the male form but am very attracted to the penis.

I have gone to the next level with my dressing. I made "rice test" breast enhancers and body shapers. I know i am bias and likely make a non-attractive girl, but I see many parts of me that are very "hot" from a male perspective.

I took to using dildos and other analogs to the penis and violating myself. Where there once was pain is a rush of pleasure, where I would immediately disrobe and remove all traces of femininity, I bask in the afterglow of a 7" penis inside me.

I frequently lay on my couch at risk of being caught by my wife and kids caressing my stockings or tights, cupping my size C's.

I want to find a partner who can 'take me' properly. I want to feel a warm body between my legs and enter me giving everything there is to give. I am concerned that i will wind up giving hand jobs to old men in the park, or worrying if those boys who just gangbanged me are of age. I want to be taken properly.

needless to say there is the whole I am not attracted to men thing and I love my family. very hard to deal with that.