I like to know what a man I love likes first before sleeping with him, but am often troubled about how to bring up the topic. I think I am somewhat easy to read in desire and needs, but I DO have a few perks and kinks in me when it comes to good sex. I like to be in "the mood" for sex at several levels before going all the way. I feel worried if I can do all a man wants from me and will come back for more with delight?? when in love I am the victim and at the mercy of the desired one. I wonder what he is thinking and am I DOING IT RIGHT FOR HIM?? what else do I need to know to make it worth his time and comfort?? and eliminate all other competitions.

I do not feel that sure or confident of myself sexually but tend to just act as if I am to others, while bleeding buckets of anxiety within. so I had to do a scene where I show some leg and not that comfortable about doing that at all, in fact hated the thought of that and inwardly freaked and cried but acted like it was not much of a big deal. I am such the liar on the outside if I can get away with it. pulse rate up and grimacing I let the whole thing happen... then later went home and bawled thinking "you dumb bitch what are on??" and that is how I get through life most of the time. and with sex. I just want to know what he is thinking and how can I get his attentions more, but does any woman ever really know?? how do I get there??