I have the kind of boyfriend you only dream of. Smart, funny, hardworking and totally into me. I love him but I am not in love with him, if that makes sense.

A few years ago I met an older woman, the chemistry of that first meeting was amazing. I have never felt that way before especially towards another woman, and at first I didn't realise it was attraction.
Over time we got to know each other well, and she confessed to me that she was a lesbian, and she wanted to have an intimate relationship with me. I was confused, excited and guilt ridden.

She is my best friend, we talk all day everyday. I haven't had a physical relationship with her, but I want to. I feel guilty. I want her, I really want her.

She hasn't dated anybody since we met. I encourage her to go out and meet people, but deep down I hope she wont. I have fallen for her. She doesn't want me to leave my bf, but wants us to have an affair.

Its been 3 long years and I don't know what to do....