I am sick of idiots on some sites going on about how bad their partners are at the sex act, like one rights a pathetic attempt at a blow job or she OR he likes hot candle wax or bloodletting in his OR her sex to me blood flowing is not a big erotic excitement but one of fear and excitability of another kind. hot wax is no big deal I do that a lot ... dribble a little over myself or fingers and hand ... could try genitals or asshole next like I do with nail polish for a burn. but lets face it that is all so borning compared to knives and genital mutalations cutting the clit and bum hole... bum bleeding or snakes ... a snake trying to rape you or eat your head is pretty mean sexually especially if it is poisonous... I would like to hypnotise a snake to dance with me, like I did one came to my bed and head butt me in the third eye ... it was a cobra... I was asleep... carpet snakes etc is more out there then hot wax. I am trying to reform from that bullshit!!!! I used to burn my ass on hotplates doing auto erotic sex I dont need that shit going on in my head. I WANT TO KILL MYSELF MY HEAD IS KILLING ME... LAST FEW WEEKS HAS BEEN BAD DEPRESSION AND MIGRAINES WITH DARK ELECTRIC BLUES AND REDS MAKING ME SO ILL. I AM THINKING ABOUT ENDING IT ALL SOON, SUICIDING ON SOME PILLS OR JUST JUMP INFRONT OF A CAR OR BUS. IF I HAVE A BAD STD THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ME. LYING TO ME IS NOT GOING TO HELP ME. BUT EVERYONE LIES TO ME!!! I used to fuck the vacuum cleaner and doors and bed nobs, and anything really for pleasure. at school would go to the toilet and fuck myself nuts in grade 3.

public places like shopping centers in kids rides I would masturbate, in the toy section of department stores, public pools or at the gym even.