Two hours ago I walked into our home covered in three mens dried up cum and had to find somewhere on the net to confess where I am in my life right now.

Around two years back my beautiful wife, who's twelve years older than me, told me she no longer enjoyed or was interested sex. It wasn't anything to do with me or the size of my erection, it was her hormones and her total lack of libido. We sought help from a few doctors, but she just didn't respond to any treatment. As time went on I started to get frustrated and opened up to a real wonderful older guy at work, who just happens to be gay.

We chatted for over an hour and after a lot of good advice, during which I admitted to much prefering to fuck rather than masturbation, I left him to start eating his lunch. As I was walking out of his office, he smiled and made a passing comment, something like "Hey, you could always fuck a guys arse, we gay guys sometimes like to have what's called a "fuck and go" with another guy.

Over the next few months and still not having sex at home, I resolved myself to visiting a prostitute. Although she was very pretty and only in her early twenties and having a real good fuck, I hated myself. Then my colleagues flippant comment came from the back of my mind and I started to look on line for gay sexual contacts. I at first thought it would just be me seeking a sense of seeing if I would or could, but after joining a contact site, I put my profile on. A couple of days later I checked my messages to find it had been inundated with replies.

Going through them I replied to three men, all older than me and all expressing their desire to meet up for casual sex, something I'd stipulated in my profile. They all described themselves as this, that and the other, but I didn't understand then, the termanology.

I met Jim seven months ago after work in a local park as it was getting dark. My seven inch dick was ragingly hard even as I got out of my car and then walked the short distance into the wooded area with him. Standing leant against a tree I had my first gay experience. Jim sank down onto his haunches, took out my cock and proceeded to give me what I can only describe as an amazingly good blow job. His tongue and mouth worked my swollen dick soo good I came in under five minutes, filling his mouth with my hot sticky cum. I must have been still horny because my cock remained super hard. Swallowing the load I'd just given him, Jim went on to take my cock back into his mouth and for the next twenty or so minutes he showed me just how good he was at fellatio.

I walked into the house minus two loads of cum and a new facination for gay sex. It was something over the next two months I got total oral satisfaction from.

Five montha ago Jim asked me if I'd consider meeting him at home maybe with another guy. When he showed the picture of the other man, Bernie, I couldn't believe it, it was one of the other men I hadn't yet met and who's cock on his profile looked huge. We all met up three days later in Jims very big and beautiful home.

It was at Jims wonderful home I first learned my liking for being fucked. Jim I already knew liked sucking cock, what I didn't kow was he considerd himself as a totally versatile bisexual man. Bernie on the other hand told me he was most definately a top, and wouldn't entertain anyone touching his arsehole. When I realised what they were saying I thought about what role, if I had one, was I. It was Bernie who decided it for me as Jim was sucking my cock down his throat. He got up behind me, put his face to my butt cheeks pulled them apart and started to lick my rear hole.

With Jims attentions on my cock and Bernie's on my arsehole, I didn't last long. But what I did find out was how much I liked Bernie tonging my arsehole. Bernie had me lay down on the bed naked and spread mylegs once I'd told him how much I'd enjoyed his experienced tongue. Then for the next ten minutes he treated me to the most fantastic of rimming sessions. When I felt him slip a finger inside my arse, I just accepted it as part of the amazing tonging he was giving me.

Not to be outdone or to be left out, Jim moved up onto the bed, his cock fully erect, (He's about five and half inches when fully erect) and offered it for me to suck. I'd not once sucked his cock in the two months we'd been to have oral sex, but I had masturbated him on a number of occasions. Bernie's skills and my total lack of sexual inhibitions at that stage, I greedily accepted Jim cock.

Bernie slid me to the edge of the bed and I heard him moving about. Then I felt a cold substance being applied to my rear hole and a few moments later the hot tip of his bulging cock. I was about to say no, when he pushed forwards and impaled me on his large thick cock. The pain was unreal and I struggled to keep Jims cock in my mouth, but I did and concentrating on pleasuring Jim after all, the times he'd sucked me to completion I soon relaxed and amazingly started to enjoy Bernie small but deep thrusts.

When I heard Jim tell Bernie, "Hey look Bernie, he's fucking enjoying you fucking him now" Bernie began to fuck me a litle harder with each thrust until he was pounding into my arse. I couldn't help myself from moaning so load even with Jims cock filling my mouth, Bernies cock felt absolutely fucking thrillingly sexual in my whole, so much so I began to push back onto him. We were all going at it hard by then and I accepted my first ever load when Jim cried out he was cumming.

I was flipped over by Bernie and watched his face beam with lust, as he inserted his huge cock back into me, my legs resting on his shoulders. I still had some of Jims cum in my mouth when he leant over. With Bernie now hammering away at my arsehole and tossing my cock off, Jim kissed me, my first ever male male kiss. I was still kissing Jim when I came all over myself as Bernies cock and right hand worked their magic.

The grunting got louder and more forceful, as did Bernies thrusting up my butt hole. with one almighty big and long thrust, he unloaded up my arsehole filling the condom. His whole body was shaking as he continued to cum and I lay there loving every single moment of him fucking me. Removing his cock and then sliding the condom off he put the open end over my dick, smeared my cock wwith his own cum and lowered his head to my cock. With my cock now covered in his cum, he invited Jim to join him and they both started to lick and suck Bernies cum off my cock and balls.

Over these last five months I've met both men on a regular basis, sometimes as individuals, but mostly as a threesome and each and every time I find I like something new. There is no close loving between us, it's just raw unadultarated sex and that's how I want it to last. Although I have sought sex outside my marriage, I truely still love my wife and if our sexual situation improved I'd stop my gay sexual liasons immediately, but they haven't and four hours ago I met another guy, with Bernie and Jim. He's my age and has an even larger cock than Bernie. It is my birthday today and was their present to me.

I've arranged to recieve a one on one present off Josh tomorrow, when my wife visits her sister. It will be at his apartment and I'll be the one being well and truely fucked.