So there is this girl. Alexandria. I dated her for almost 5 years and it was the best 5 years of my life. We spent the last two years of high school together and now we go to college together. At the beginning of the this semester she tells me we can no longer be together because she doesn't love me and she has been cheating on me with someone for almost a year now. Needless to say my heart was crushed and I could be barely hold the tears back. Worst part is we are still at the same school and are dorming relatively close to each other. Over last weekend a mutual friend of ours had his first big get together of the year and begged me to come even though we both knew she'd be there. He told me there would be a lot of pussy and I get easily get laid. I decided to go just so I didn't seem bitter. Of course the second I get there I see her, and she's with this other guy. I can't even handle seeing them together so I just get wasted like any sensible idiot would do. I keep watching them all night and I can't help but be kind of turned on by the sight of the grinding and making out and rubbing each other.. But at the same time it is hurting me, I am super conflicted. Idk what went through her head and why this had to happen but after a trip to the bathroom I return to the party and she is sucking his dick in front of everyone... My heart sinks to the floor and I just about lose it. He notices this and grins at me almost menacingly and starts fucking her mouth while he stares at me. At this point I can't help but feel like everyone is looking at me and laughing as the love of my life deep throats this guys dick in front of me. I'm really hard but at the same time heart broken. I end up leaving before i see anymore and jerk off to the thought of him dominating her after which I fell asleep crying like a bitch. I feel horrible but now all I can think about his is dick inside her making her feel ways I could never feel.. I long to see it again and I have no idea why.