I in love with my older boyfriend and he's 5 yrs older than me and my mom opposed it at first. She didn't like him being soo much older than me. She didn't like he had been married before and she sure didn't like he was white. My mom was the most racist person ever until now,but it didn't happen over night. She be stubborn and bout kill him a couple times when she catch doin the nasty together. Now she laugh bout it with him. My mom did give us premission to date with lil catch to it that getsto share Jr sexually. I love my man and he was willing to do anything so we can be together,only now I think him falling for my momma more than me. They have fun and jog together while I at school. He work nights so I see him most on weekends and they see hangout and talk like a real couple. I ask him bout that and he just tell me I'm just playing along til I turn 18 in 2 year. I love Jr so much but it bothers me he and her take showers and naps together. My momma talks bout him being good size and he is a nice size and it feels amazing to be with him that way. My fear is him breaking up with me cause even on weekends we don't have sex that much but they have sex at least twice a day and my momma lets me know how many times they do it everyday. I want to get pregnant maybe he will love me more if i do have his baby. I love my momma to but she rub this in my face how she sucks him better than me,how she fucks him better than me,how many orgasms he gives her. I don't know if I want to share him anymore but when i mention it being just the 2 of us he gets upset and turns it round on me and say we have to do what momma says if so we can be together. I always agree with him and it continues. It's like he dont respect my feelings and can't tell a soul for fear of both of them go to jail for long time. I thought of ending our relationship but i know they will just stay together before my eyes in the same house and i couldnt take not being with him at least some times. I will stay with him and keep our arrangement til i am 18,then we're getting married on my graduation night,even if i don't walk on that stage to get my diploma. I learning new ways to please him,things she don't know andgetting dirty don't bother me none. He's mine and hers for now but soon only mine he will be. My pastor teaches us confession is good for the soul. I do feel better.