I sit here reading confessions and can not help but to confess what I hide to everyone I know. I love to cross dress and want to have sex with a man once just to see what it is like. I have not had sex with a man because I am not gay and would prefer that a female force me to do this. I fanaticized about this all the time. I do cross dress in privet and have gone out in public a few times. I am wearing panties as I wright this and have a girls top on. My girlfriend of a year and a half knows nothing about this fantasy of mine. I just wish I could dress as a female and be accepted for who I am and not what others think I should be. I feel so much more comfortable when I am cross dressed than when I am dressed as a guy. I am thinking that I may just have to come clean and tell my girlfriend who I know will leave me. Their I have said it.