I feel guilty today for my actions years ago. This was before we heard of aids, so any std could be cured with a shot. One divorced women and a single mom were my term used now, fuck buddies. There were girls around the neighborhood that I did this to as well. I ask if she took any birth control pills and most said yes. On every one of them including one girl who took nothing, I either pulled off the condom or cut and ripped the end.
I just hated how the old condoms were so tight, the lack of feeling it blocked for me. She had no idea and I just said the condom broke. I got one of the women pregnant like this and it bothered me. The girl who took nothing missed two periods and worried us both. She would not let me have her again.
I picked up girls and women in bars. Most I just acted like I put the condom on, just went into them with nothing at all. Some ask me not to cum inside them, fear of it breaking, I would cum and keep going. Eventually cumming the second time on her belly or in her mouth.

I feel guilty for this today and wonder if I got any of the girls pregnant. Some were out of state as I traveled. Most were drunk, some real drunk. Some were married and just getting some on the side. I think back and know I did wrong. I did get an STD and required strong antibiotics. Have NO idea when I got it. I do know was after age 18. So the young girls did not nor the two women I serviced.

Never do this shit to women, I was a little selfish shit. I may have caused some real problems doing this.

To all I can not apologies to in person, I am so sorry for what I did.