I'm so confused at the moment and I just can't seem to get my head around how I actually feel about my stepfather and what he's told me.

My mom passsed away in late August and since then I've been going round to my moms/stepfathers house, making sure he's ok and to keep in contact. Phil was/is (wow this is hard putting this down) a lot younger than my mom was. He's in his late thirties and I have to admit they were a great couple.

Calling by two weeks ago I walked in as usual, without notice I was coming by. Walking straight into the kitchen as I normally did, getting myself a drink. I heard noise coming from the utility room. Curious I opened the door further and peeked in. Lay on the washing machine on top of a bundle of towels was a young guy. He was naked and his legs were up in the air. With his cock pounding away at the young guys ass was Phil, and from where I was I could almost see just how big Phils cock was.

Almost straight away they both saw me and Phil stopped fucking the guy and withdrew his cock. Only then did I see the full size of his huge cock. Making my apologies I left to the sound of Phil asking me to wait.

I'd only been in my apartment half an hour when Phil rang the intercom and asked if he could see me. Letting him in we sat oposite each other in the lounge area. For about ten minutes Phil went onto explain about how him having sex with the guy wasn't new. He told me my mom knew about his extra sexual needs and then went further by saying she sometimes watched or joined in.

I'd always known my mom wasn't your everyday boring housewife, she was way too much fun to be just that, But I didn't know she was part of Phils obvious bisexual needs. I called him a liar and asked him to leave, which he did.
For the next few days all I could think about was what Phil had said. Then after he'd left a message on my answer machine, things started to fit together.

The young men who were supposidly Phil and my moms friends sometimes just leaving as I got home from college. Or the time I got in early from a concert, Phil, my mom and a guy walked down stairs looking all flushed before the guy quickly left. They told me he'd been there to help Phil build something or other, but I never saw any sign of any building work.

Phoning him up I asked if I could call by and see him. For nearly the whole afternoon we talked about him, me and my mom. He made me see by explaining they were a liberal couple, and a couple who sometimes included other men into their sexual lives. As phil was telling me all this I couldn't help myself, I actually became horny. I started to see Phil in a different light, not only as a stepfather but also as a sexual man, a man whos enormous cock I'd seen.

Getting home later that day I showered. Stood in the shower with the water beating down on me, I began to play with myself. I was still horny from earlier and thinking of Phils cock and the scene i'd witnessed, I had an amazingly strong orgasm as my fingers worked away at my engorged clit.

That was nearly two weeks ago and I've been calling by Phils house nearly every day since then. Not only to see my stepfather and to let him know I've forgiven and now understand him, but also because I think I'd like to see him naked again, naked and using his huge cock inside me.