I am sooooo messed up. I've never really been sexually attracted to anyone, but I'm a fairly attractive person so I've been with a few guys. None of them have been sexually appealing to me, but I've had sex with some. I just got a job at a shoe store, and I feel so messed up with things. I am sexually stimulated by helping women get fitted for heels. I have heels and I wear them all the time, but it's never been sexual.

I noticed a definite feeling the first time I helped a woman get fitted for a pair of heels. At first I thought it was just a sense of accomplishment and that I was pleased that I could help her find what she was looking for, but I've since noticed it's a lot more than that, I enjoy it sexually.

I find my panties get moist and my nipples noticeably puff. If I can touch the feet of the woman I'm helping fit, it thrills me deep inside. My private parts become wet and get a tingling sensation, and my nipples become firm and ache. All I want is to place her foot between my breasts and kiss and lick it, then feel the toe of her upper pressing into my wetness.

After helping several different women, I've gone into the employee bathroom and each time used my own shoe to get myself off thinking about each of their feet and heels on my body. This is really messed up to me, I am not sexually drawn to these women, and they do not turn me on. But once I kneel down and start to fit them, I get so incredibly turned on. I catch myself touching their feet and caressing the shiny leather of the shoe as I smooth it onto their foot. I don't think anyone has noticed yet, but I don't see how I can keep this up without the customers starting to figure it out and complaining.

A few times after I got home after work, I've noticed my mom or sister wearing their heels. I'd already been way excited by doing fittings at work, so I have asked them if they need their feet massaged. This was so completely crazy, but I loved doing it. Caressing my mom's or my sister's feet. I managed to touch my breasts with their feet as I'm massaging them, but I am so uncomfortable I'm afraid to actually put them between my breasts and massage them with my breasts. Each time I did this for my mom or sister, I've had to immediately go to my room afterward and masturbate myself.

Guys feet do nothing for me, and helping women find flats or any other style shoe other than heels does nothing for me. I'd so pay for a woman's shoe purchase if I could just feel her foot between my breasts, and I don't know how far I'd go to be able to use her heel clad foot to masturbate myself. After I've given my mom and sister foot massages, I know I'd so do just about anything to feel their feet on me and be able to freely caress them, and to have their leather clad foot touch me, step on me or let me kiss and lick them. I wake up sometimes orgasming to the thought of a customer pressing her pointy toed shoe into me, feeling its smooth leather surface parting my wet flesh and giving me pleasure. I now find myself often having the dream or day dreaming of licking my own juices off of the leather upper of a customer while they stand over me in their new heels watching me kiss and lick their feet.

Like I said, I am soooo messed up, but this is the only thing I've ever found that really sexually turns me on.