I think have a crush on my friend in England. He's really cute with wavy hair down to his shoulders and a cute nose and he's a year younger than me. He's possibly my first crush. The thing is, I live in Australia and even if I lived closer to him, I don't think he would return my feelings. I met him on a blogging site. my heart soars when I get a message from him, even if it's only "hi how are you". I told him I think he is adorable but chose to make it anonymous at the last minute. I am really confused about my orientation now. I always thought I was aromantic, having gone 19 years without really having feelings for anyone. I guess I still should say I am asexual because I still feel no sexual attraction or desires towards him or anyone. I just really love him. It's confusing for me though, these new feelings are so alien and it terrifies me. I don't want to hear why you think I'm not asexual because believe me I've heard it all and it's bullshit. just help me out. what do I do from here?? How will i get over him??