I AM ADDICTED TO CUM:

I am a 45 yr old married male and due to fantasy play with my wife and her roleplaying and her fantasies of wanting to see me with another man, I have become addicted to cum.

the very first time was when I let her talk me into her contacting an old boyfriend of hers and letting her go and fuck him, she was begging me at the time for me to let her go and get her pussy filled up with his cum and come home and sit on my face and make me lick her clean.

she started at first by making me go down on her or sitting on my face when I would cum in her and I discovered that it turned me on to eat it out of her..

the very first week after she talked me into her going to see him, she contacted three other male friends and before I could realize what had happened, my wife had fucked four other men and I had licked her clean after each one of them had fucked her and filled her up.

she kept me so turned on that I did anything that she wanted me to do including going out and buying her a big strap on for her to use on me and I found myself tied face down on our bed and she actually raped me the first time with it and it hurt like hell but after a while she had me begging for it and she would do it almost nightly, some nights she would go and see one of her man friends and come home and use the cum inside her as lubricant to bend me over and fuck me with the strap on..

this continued for about 6 months and when it stopped, she had me to the point that I loved what she did and could not wait each night to see what happened.. she had some medical issues and surgery that put her down and out for a while and things sort of just faded away and were not brought up anymore.

my problem is this, I am still addicted to cum, and each chance I get when she is gone long enough I will get out the strap on and I will ride it and get myself off and eat my cum, well that got to where it wasn't enough so I got the nerve to join a website and I met a man and gave him a blowjob and loved it. I started meeting him twice a week to suck him off, well then I started talking to married women and got a few of them to fuck their husbands before they went to work and I would then meet them just to eat them out and lick them clean, no sex at all.. well now it has progressed to meeting a man that has a very nice big cock and I bend over and he fucks me senseless after of course I have sucked his cock and got it nice and hard..

I have been doing this for almost two years now, I have a regular trusted friend that I suck off twice a week, I have a friend that fucks me once or twice a week and I have two married women that I meet once or twice a month to lick them clean after their husbands fuck them...

it has gotten to the point that I can not stay hard long enough to fuck my wife, the regular sex that her and I have now is so boring. when I eat her out, I have to think of one of my married women friends to get hard and then to stay hard long enough to fuck her I have to think about my friend fucking me or a woman fucking me with a strap on..

I am not gay, I am far from it, I love my wife and I love women and I love pussy, but my wife got me started eating cum and getting my ass fucked and now I can not get enough of it from my four friends that she has no idea about. I don't feel guilty at all and use every free minute I get to find me some cum to eat.

my friend that fucks me has asked me about being with him and another guy that has a much larger cock and loves to fuck married men and I want to do it. I just hope that my wife never finds out what I have been doing for the last two years behind her back, but in a way I find it to be her fault..